I haven’t been posting much.. been sorta in a slump lately. Maybe it’s the weather.. maybe it’s because I am way too busy lately. I’ve been finding it harder and harder to relax, am exhausted and have been easily irritated.
I did have a nice weekend away last week.. the whole family went up to Door County for Timmy and my birthdays. We are born 4 days apart.. but that’s a whole different story. The weekend was great, nice weather, spent a lot of time outside, had wood fires in our cabin each evening complete with a movie and popcorn. We returned to a dreadful snow storm on Sunday and on Monday I was suddenly thrown into a hectic week. The “recharge” I felt over the weekend immediately was gone. Major bummer. I hit the gym hard this week.. it helps me get out my frustrations and pent up energy. I love working out. I love moving and being active.. I also like to make a difference. Whether it’s weeding my garden so passers by have something beautiful to look at, giving someone much needed encouragement or doing as much as I can to make myself healthier. I am a perfectionist. I can look at something and figure it out. If I can’t do it the “right” way, I just won’t attempt to do it. That also makes me a procrastinator.. I tend to be procrastinating perfectionist. It’s not that I am being totally lazy.. I just don’t have the correct amount of time to get the job done.
I had a nice chat with Shirley on Saturday. I haven’t seen her for nearly a month. I’ve realized how much I’ve missed her company and wise advice. Also the barn in general.. it is my safe haven, where I go to release and let go. My horse is there.. and so are many of my good friends.
I played with Charm on Saturday.. at times I found myself becoming a Drill Sargent, I was very critical. I tried to keep it under control, for the most part I did. But I could feel the nitpickyness welling up inside of me. Before that, I hadn’t seen her for 2 weeks.. jeez. We did play with some driving with the 45′ line tied up into 2 reins. It went super well actually (I wasn’t in Drill Sargent mode at this time). We played at the walk and trot, turns, circles … change of direction on the circle. I got tangled, the rope kept going under Charm’s legs.. at times it was a total mess. But guess what? My horse still understood what I was lamely trying to ask of her. And she tried to do her best for me with out getting cranky or defensive. She is an amazing teacher and I actually gained confidence through the whole ordeal and found it really fun. It’s something I plan to practice often and get really good at.
So I’ve decided I need to prioritize some things in my life. I need to simplify and let some things go for now. Spring and summer always tend to be very busy and I can’t keep going on with life in this slump I’m in.