..to gripe and complain. I don’t have a lot to complain about.. but sometimes if feels good to vent.
Often I wonder what the point of my horsemanship is. Why do I do what I do? I work 40+ hours a week, take care of a house, husband and dog and see a lot of friends throughout the week. That is all fine and dandy.. but is there really room for my horsemanship?? I pay to board Charm, I’m in the Savvy Club, I spend ‘x’ amount of hours a week studying and I lead a horse group. I would love to be riding EVERY day, but it’s just not possible. This year l used my horse trailer maybe 5 times and only went on 1 trail ride. It just sucks! I want to do so much more, but time and money just always get in the way.
So what is comes down to is this: What is the point of all my hard work? What is the story line? I hate the idea of riding for no reason, for no ‘real’ goal except for my own pleasure. I feel I have worked hard, but just stay secluded in an arena or around the property. I have thought about showing locally at a stock horse show, but I am a big chicken. Besides, I get too competitive. Maybe I just need to suck it up and do it..